americanimengel

Wanna know the truth about why I dont post to DA anymore? Or do anything I use to? Areas of life, sub lives, get used up. Just like a song. It doesn't matter when you discover a particular song. If it was written 3 decades ago or jist yesterday. Once you hear it, you begin filling that song with memories, thoughts, feelings and connections. You fill songs up with memories, feelings, places, times, and names, and once they are full, you cannot put anymore in. Fuck. Lost the plot. Yall happy with this? Cool. Night.

So I don't update on here a lot. It is however one of the few places online where I feel safe expressing myself. As I said in the last update about a year ago, I have pretty much stopped posting statuses and stuff online. I stopped putting stuff on facebook. Feels like my ego hit a wall. I'm proud of all the effort I put into my past. All the attention to detail, all the fun and games I had playing with my ego and figuring it out, but now, I don't really get off on how I dress, what car I drive, who I know or where I go, even what pictures I draw. I remember the past and like, really desiring a cute girl, or like, really loving looking great, having my outfit be on fleek XD. I enjoyed going to shows, partying with the DJ's etc. Things like having the latest phone or the best drugs and shit like that. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy nice clothes, good drugs, VIP parties etc. but actually, it's been fading for a long time, I held onto it through most of my twenties and I am

Life is strange. Have more or less completely forgotten about DA. I'll try to get on and share where I'm at now. I will say a lot has happened and I feel i lost my ability to speak or express myself openly and honestly on other social media platforms. This is an obscure area of my digital presence where I feel I have been and can continue to be very honest. I'll post details and art later cuz it's pretty late and I'm tired. Just know that I'm doing a lot better and I really miss all of you who interacted and paid attention to me in the past. I'm sure you are all grown up to and possibly completely different people now as well.  I really will